2003-11-07 - 10:22 a.m.
i can't tell what this is/
where we been or where we're going/
and i stumbled on the way there/
then we watched the river flowing/
and all signs pointed west/
and you smiled with a knowing/
look that said this was what you wanted.
we broke bread on a thursday/
and you followed close behind/
there were words left there unspoken/
and there were words we couldn't rhyme
there were pieces that didn't match up/
we didn't notice at the time/
we didn't notice cause we were busy laughing.
he looks at you protectively/
i can't blame him, i would to/
she looks at me as a failure/
and i have failed, i didn't do/
what it was my conscience begged me/
you hummed, 'tangled up in blue'/
and there i was, standing at your mercy.
this is one part of elation/
this is one half of a song/
and the rest will come to me later/
but right now, i'll sing along/
and i'll let the east wind dictate/
where it was that i went wrong/
where i was when i realized who you were.
if we subtract out all the danger/
if we break this into shards/
and leave the bottles on the highway/
to mark november's stars/
we can say we saw a lifetime/
through the windshield of the car/
we can say we saw how good it could have been.
you'll be leaving for the city/
that my women now calls home/
and i miss her on the weekends/
but i miss having my bones/
rattled by conclusions drawn/
and symetry imposed/
by the nature of our own situation.
i haven't touched the bottle now/
for three weeks going on four/
and i haven't been touched by innocence/
like yours for forty more/
and if you see the light is changing/
push the pedal to the floor/
let's make this what it always could have been.
this is a state of mass confusion/
this is a snapshot of a war/
waged by resolutions made/
and good intentions frayed and torn/
i never guessed that this would happen/
you seemed to sense i wanted more.
you seemed to sense whenever i was barely breathing.
you alighted on the branch/
like someone had sent you here/
to clean up all the mess/
that i had learned to love and fear/
take a good look at the countryside/
one day we might live here.
one day i might build you what i promised.
